My Angel Son

The days, the weeks, the years have gone by

I can't mend this broken heart no matter how hard I try

I think about you every day

You were so perfect in every way

10.9Ilbs so big and strong

Blue eyes, blonde hair and 58cm long!

You had your dad's mouth and no doubt would have had his charm,

His breathtaking smile

But hopefully my ' sense of calm'!

He's gone too because he couldn't stand the pain

Memories so bad they cut to the grain

My hopes and dreams were shattered when you left

I had to pick up the pieces and try to do my best

Its hard to be brave and say its ok

when you really you don't want to face another day

You fought so hard against all odds

You were the unfortunate one in three thousand they said…..

As I held my wound, lying in bed

Vasa Previa was mentioned by the midwife

Little did I know about the trouble, the strife

and that it would ruin my life

When they called us into that room, I think we knew

that we were going to have to have to let you go

In my head I screamed out ‘oh no'!

When that heartbreaking moment came, it felt like a knife,

going straight into our hearts.. .

the pain to remain for the rest of our lives

The vows we took couldn't keep us together

No matter how I hard I tried, it wasn't going to be forever.

James Edward Gadd, our little soldier..,

We wrapped you up tight and took you outside to say goodbye

The sun shone down from the big, blue sky

And in our mind's eye the wings appeared to help you fly.

God bless your soul

You special, little man

You're loved, you're cherished, you should be here

But one day we'll meet again, I have no fear.

Mum X